Sunday, November 15, 2009

Dear Hater...


Dear hater,

Really? Again? I thought we squashed all this nonsense long ago, but I guess you decided to come back for act 2! Do you ever give that feeble little mind of yours a break? I think its so cute of you to dedicate so much time, thought and energy to little ole' me! They say big things come in small packages, and that dense tiny mind of yours sure causes so much commotion, particularly when I'm around! You sure are brave to publicize your feelings for me, most admirers prefer to remain secret, but not you! Aww, how sweet.

Oh hater, when will you learn? Haven't you ever heard the grade school quote that, "I am rubber and you are glue, and whatever you say bounces off me and sticks to you"? With that being said, all your negativity holds no weight with me, it just continues its ruthless grip on you and your sorry little life. Didn't I tell you last time to go get a hobby or at least occupy your time with something productive? Glaring and snickering at me does not count you big silly! If anything, your snide remarks and attempts to pump fear into me only furthermore validates my excellence and superiority over you. I was already headed for the top, but thank you ever so kindly for pushing me up a few steps.

An old saying goes, "You can lead a horse to water but you can not make it think" and I find so much relevance in that statement because I can lead your mind to some knowledge but I can not make you think! Hatred does nothing good for one's physical, emotional or mental being, if anything it confines you. I'm all about love and progression, and you and I can never coexist being that you are all about negativity and digression. Not all opposites attract, some of them repel.

Great leaders are seldom understood or threatened by their peers, and you and your shallow outlook on life pose no threat to me. Perhaps you do not dislike or hate me, but in fact fear me because I pose a threat to you. Whereas you live your life in a box, I live mine outside it. You fear me because you fear change. However, instead of turning my back on you I choose to enlighten you. I do not think I am better than you, I am simply leading by example. I do not seek revenge on you, I pray for humility and patience to deal with you. You do not disgust me although you very often disappoint me. But you are human just like me and I know as humans we are frequently flawed. And because I can empathize with you, I grit my teeth when you scowl at me. I turn the other cheek when you cause an uproar when I walk by. I try my best not to verbally assault you when you make rude remarks about me.

Hater, I love you dearly. Thanks for the fuel, and when I reach my peak I promise to embrace my success and remain humble. I couldn't have made it this far with out you, keep it up!

XOXO
Mikey was HERE.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Feeling Risky...

Hello gorgeous.

My silence and decline in blogging has been due to big change in my agenda. Things in my life have shifted, and for once I actually have priorities! Haha I guess everyone eventually does have to grow up. Who knew?!

With the change of the season and with recent events in my life, I have been flooded with new feelings of confidence and ambition. On a personal note, I have endured many emotional blows but my tenacity has kept me standing.

This season, and as the year finally comes to its end I am going to strive to step out of my element. Take some chances, and spice things up. Life has the tendency to take us out of our comfort zone, and sometimes we can not fight the change, we just have to adapt. Change can be good for us, and I am going to embrace it.

I have been feeling these unprecedented surges of creativity, and I think its time to exert them. Maybe slightly change the way I dress, venture into some different artistic venues, broaden my outlook on life.

For once I feel like taking some risks. So consider that a head's up and a threat.

Later my little monsters!
Mikey was HERE.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Its Not The SIZE Of The Boat....

Hello gorgeous.

Its the first of the month! Oh my gosh I am so stoked, its been pretty cold this week too! Now I can hit the mall and thrift stores (Yes I am a thrift store fanatic) to go shopping for sweaters and scarves!

So I decided to make a blog about every one's favorite topic: S-E-X! We're all adults here right?
*Devious grin*


Sex....every one's doing it, and majority of them are not doing it right! In my opinion, sex in my generation has been so badgered, eroded, and diminished into practically nothing of significant value. Its in the media, in our music, advertisement, and it has transformed into a form so unrecognizable and contorted.

Now-a-days it seems people are mainly concerned with penis size and promiscuity. It doesn't take much to get someone in bed anymore, many people will beat you to the bedroom before you even make the offer. So many young women have demeaned themselves into whores, and sadly pride themselves in wearing the title. Many men, especially in the gay community, hop from one partner to the next and think nothing of it. It appears that we live in an era where sex and love have nothing to do with each other anymore. But I'm quite confused, when did sex and love have a break-up? And is there any hope of them getting back together?

Call me old fashioned, call me a clueless idealist, but I think more of sex than what many people of my generation do. Maybe it something to do with my upbringing, or maybe its because I have morals.Whatever the case is I know that sex is more than getting a dick shoved up your ass, spreading your legs and laying on your back, or dropping on your knees and servicing someone. I refuse to have sex with someone simply because they have a pretty smile and is well-endowed. Whatever happened to making someone you like wait to experience that privilege with you? Or perhaps that's the problem, people don't view sex as an intimate privilege that only a select few should experience with you.

Now I am not looking down on anyone or their lifestyles, but I think that many people have sex for all the wrong reasons. Some people have sex because they are sadly on a search for love and validation, but those are two things you should already have established with the person before you engage in the act with them. Also, some people allow sex to consume their relationships because they are too blinded to see that without it they have no depth in the relationship or there is nothing in common with the other person. I find it most sad, that many people have various loveless sexual encounters and pride themselves in boasting about how many partners that have had, or how they have cheated on their partners to sleep with someone else. Those people are trying to muffle their screams for attention and help.

Many people think they have sex all figured out, but let me enlighten everyone on the truth about sex: sex can be many things, but it should never require you to sacrifice your self-esteem, dignity, self-respect, or identity to engage in the act. There is nothing wrong with taking your time when it comes to sex so that it actually means something when you do it. So boys and girls it is not the "size of the boat" or "the motion of the ocean", it is about the volume of your morality.

Later my little monsters!
Mikey was HERE.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Day & Nite. [Photo Montage]

Hello gorgeous.

Today officially marks the first day of Fall! Aren't you excited? I sure am! I can't wait to crank out the new sweaters, scarves, and get a break from all this heat!

Anyway, this post is just a photo montage of some shots I took around Downtown Sacramento! I am in no way a professional photographer, nor do I do own any professional camera equipment. Its just some pictures I took! Enjoy!


This is some abandoned garage. It was really eerie.

Amber was pretty scared, but I still like this picture.


I like this angle, and how Amber's height contrasts with the height of the building.

Barbed wire.


Amber at a worn down building on 16th Street.

Solo shot of the worn down building.


Shot of the back of the building on 16th Street.


Transition from day..........


...........to night.

Construction area.


And then we took a wrong turn and ended up on 15th and U Street! Haha, oops!


Some random bar. I love the neon sign!

Profile of Amber on a nice bench!

This concludes the photo montage! I will say that we were very exhausted after walking all those blocks when we got lost haha!

Later my little monsters!
Mikey was HERE.

Monday, September 14, 2009

R.I.P Summer, Hello Fall!

Hello gorgeous.

Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to say our goodbyes. Summer you have been a delight, but it is time for us to retire you dear. Fall is slowly making his way on the scene, and I am quite eager to see him!

Oh Fall how much I have missed you! I am so infatuated with him, everything about him keeps me on a drug-free high. I wonder what he will be like this time around, and what new adventures I will encounter with him!

Oh how I marvel at his style and fashion! No other season can compare to the way he utilizes accessories, and makes us want to dress chic and stylish!




And the food is always so good with him! From those lovely seasonal Pumpkin Spice Lattes at Starbucks to Thanksgiving dinner, he keeps me on a full stomach!


And the music of this season has me so excited! Which of my favorite artist will release new videos, hit the studio, go on tour or perform at some venues? What new artists will emerge onto the scene?



So let us all say our last words to summer, and remember the good times we shared with her. Whether it was a summer romance, loads of partying, wild nights of clubbing and drinking, concerts, or road trips, summer has been sweet to us no doubt about that. But now I stand with open arms ready to embrace Fall! Dear Summer, we hardly knew ye.

Later my little monsters!
Mikey was HERE.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

The BEAUTY Of Rejection!

Hello gorgeous.

Ever hear the phrase, "When one door closes, another one will open?" Now although the phrase is pretty cliche, it still has some validity and power in it! In life we seem to place so much hope in the next door opening as fast as it can so we can get over the fact that one door has just been slammed in our faces. But if the door never closed on us, another one would not have opened! The second door opening is supposed to be new opportunity, hope or change and the first door is supposed to be rejection. But in my opinion, rejection is not as bad as many make it out to be!

So many fear it, fight it and avoid it like the plague, but what they fail to realize is that rejection is a beneficial factor of life. Most people are so distant or against Rejection because it never travels alone; it always has its friends Vulnerability, Pity, and Sadness tagging along with it. Feeling all these emotions is enough reason for someone to not want to have to face rejection, but there are several benefits that come from enduring it. Facing a problem and standing tall against it gives you power, experience, and may enlighten you with truth about your self or the situation you are in.

Personally I can be honest and say that I have a lot of confidence in myself; do not get me wrong I have my insecurities just like everyone else, but I am also very self-assured. With that being said, despite all my confidence and security I have with myself, I am still human and I have encountered my share of rejection. I have been rejected by guys, rejected by peers, rejected from universities and colleges, rejected from jobs...and the list goes on and on! But I still have walked away from all of those experiences stronger, brighter, and surprisingly more optimistic than before I endured them! I will also say that yes, it hurts to be rejected especially repeatedly. So I can understand someone's reasoning for not wanting to face a problem or issue in fear of being turned down.

However, there is a beauty in pain that can only be discovered through stomaching it. There is a certain knowledge that you absorb when you overcome rejection, and it can be flexible and applicable to various aspects of your life. So many cringe at the thought of being bold and brave in their situations and they cower away. They shy away from asking someone they like out on a date, opening up about their feelings or expressing their emotions, or demonstrating their talent or creativity all because of rejection. Instead of screaming, they muffle themselves and stay silent. Regret and resentment usually follows.

I said all that to say this, we as humans are not invincible. We all have our rain days, and sometimes those rainy days turn into brutal storms. Rejection is not all that bad once you get to know him, in fact he's really beautiful once you learn how to conquer him. Life is not all about having your back glued to the wall, but it is also not all about being wild and reckless. Sometimes life is about taking the plunge, being risky, testing your chances. And if you fall and hit the ground, there's really only one logical thing left to do which is to get back up! The more times you endure rejection the more prone you will become to equipping yourself for it and his clingy buddies. Let us not muffle ourselves in silence, let's give rejection a run for its money and scream--loudly scream!

Later my little monsters.
Mikey was HERE.

Friday, August 7, 2009

10 Signs That You Are Dating A HEART BREAKER!

Hello gorgeous.

So I decided to write my second "Top 10", this time about heart breakers! Whether you know it or not, summer is approaching its end and it is also BREAK UP SEASON!!!! So generally if you are in a relationship this is the period when most couples start to have problems. I wouldn't be too heart broken though, just think about all the newly available Fall cuties there will be! This post will magnify a few signs that you are dating a heart breaker!

Okay let's kick this thing off!

#10 - You find yourself consistently competing with your boyfriend's/girlfriend's friends for their attention. They are steadily spending most of their free time with their friends, while you are always getting blown off. Despite your efforts to spend time with them, you always seem to end up on the back burner.

#9 - Anything that goes wrong that is their fault, always and I mean always is followed by an excuse. They can never seem to own up to their mishaps. You find yourself always being spoon fed a bunch of excuses that not only explain why whatever happened is not their fault, but also makes you feel guilty for blaming them in the first place.

#8 - He/She does not listen to you or communicate with you effectively. You find yourself continuously arguing or fighting over the same things, and it seems like they are never showing any improvement. Or, you feel like you have no voice at all in the relationship.

#7 - You try to vocalize your desires and they are always ignored by him/her. They do not take into consideration how or why what you want is important to you, and they don't strive to make any compromises. Whether that desire is more personal space, more attention, or to be sexually satisfied to whatever degree. Your wants are shut down and neglected.

#6 - Your friends have warned you about them, or told you not to date them and you defend him/her. However, you spend most of your time trying to convince yourself more than anyone else that this person is as good as you think they are. Despite everyone's advice and your own intuition, you find yourself trying to prove that you are not wrong about him/her.

#5 - He/she has a bad dating history or reputation. You are so convinced that you will be 'the one' to change them, and that you will not end up like all of their heart broken exes.

#4 - They make you feel used....and not in a good way. They consume most of your energy and contribute to most of your stress. Your relationship or time revolves mostly around all of their issues and problems. Or, they tell you that they "need you"....and you stay around because you believe him/her.

#3 - You break up and make up constantly. Things are never good for a long period of time. You always find yourself fighting or breaking up with him/her. The relationship is emotionally draining or mentally manipulative.

#2 - You've already told yourself that you don't want to do this anymore, but can never leave for good. Something always pulls you back.

#1 - You can't look at him/her and see what made you want to be with him/her in the first place. The fire, the light, or whatever is no longer there anymore.

I am by no means an expert at relationships. I mean I'm 19, what the hell do I know about love and relationships right? But these are just some things that I have encountered or witnessed and they all point to the same conclusion: THE GUY/GIRL YOU ARE DATING IS A HEART BREAKER! Stop crying. Stop stressing. And most importantly, stop fighting a battle that has already ended. Besides, if the person really cared about you or the relationship wouldn't they be fighting alongside you?

Honey, give it a rest.

Later my little monsters!
Mikey was HERE.