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Hello gorgeous.Its a new year and a new day! I said I was going to leave a lot of things in 2009, and start and try some new things in 2010...and I plan to do just that! But before we get to all that, I need to address an issue of mine!It felt like in 2009 I was sitting in the passenger's seat of my life, and I didn't accomplish or achieve many of the goals I felt I should have. I let all the hassles and obstacles I endured steer me wherever they wanted, and now I'm forced playing catch up! But I think its best to learn from your mistakes and try again then to be down in the dumps and not get back on your feet at all.So for this year I'm going to do things very differently! For one thing, I want to upgrade my personality. I've always believed that first impressions were highly important, but for some reason all my first impressions turn out horribly wrong! People generally always think the worse of me when they meet me for the first time! Once they get past my exterior and get to know the "real me" they discover that I'm nothing of what they thought I was initially, but damn that takes a lot of time and work! They usually think I'm this flamboyant, pretentious, stuck up and obnoxious gay boy. Or they think I'm really shy, reserved and docile. And neither of those things are who I am at all!I'd like to think of myself as charismatic, irresistible and adorable (Haha just kidding)! I know that I am a nice guy, and I'd like to show more of that persona than to have to everyone thinking the wrong things about me. Now that does not mean that I am going to morph myself or kiss a bunch of ass to get everyone to like me, because lets be realistic everyone is not going to like or be able to tolerate me! But there is no harm in being genuine, sincere and the best you that you can be at all times! If the public is not going to sip my cup of tea, I'd prefer it'd be because it was not the flavor they were looking for, rather than they misunderstood it at first glance.This year I am going hard. No exceptions, no excuses. And the only way I can do that is by being the best me I can be! So its about time I started living my life for me, and being myself 100 %. I've got nothing to lose at this point!Peace and love!Mikey was HERE.
Hello gorgeous.Hmph, you're so vain I bet you probably think this blog is about you. And you're right, it is! You heart breaker, you con-artist, you manipulator, you hater, you negative leech, you bundle of fear, you feeling of sorrow and misery, you dream crusher, you mind full of regret, you trials and tribulations of 2009!So much has happened this year, its been a wild and reckless roller coaster that I have been a very unwilling participant of. Reflecting on my life, and all the events that occurred this year has pushed me so far off the ledge I have nothing left to do but spread my wings and soar back up to the top. Life in 2009 has given me so much drama, so much heart ache that I can not wait for the year to finally meet its end.Many people hope and wish for 2010 to be better for them, but I am certain that 2010 will exceed my expectations because I plan on making it that way. There is no room for failure, uncertainty or doubt, I have to come out swinging. There are no options or alternatives. My style, ambition, work ethic, morals, relationships all have to be on point! No room for slip-ups or mishaps!One of the main hassles I faced in 2009 was my relationships with guys. I find it so sad, yet hilarious that out of all the guys I dated this year, after all the bullshit and obstacles they put me through, now that the year is coming to its end and I am getting near the finish line....the only person still standing here is me. There's no one who held my hand the whole time, no one who stood by my side, no man who gave me constant support and words of endearment, no its just me. Trust me, that fact screams a truth too loud to be ignored, and I'm finally listening to it.So with all that being said, this is a declaration of independence. This is an emancipation from disappointment, wastes of time, jumping though loop holes, holding back and falling victim to doubt. This is MY LIFE got damn it and it is about time I started acting like it! Its time I exercised my creativity in various avenues, gave myself plenty of space to mature and explore the many passions and interests I have. And I am not waiting for the clock to strike midnight on New Years Eve, I'm starting RIGHT NOW. I'm going hard with no intentions of slowing down, or giving up. In 2009 life threw a lot of punches but never knocked my lights out, so for round two in 2010 I'm swinging back.Later my little monsters!Mikey was HERE.
Hello gorgeous.I don't know if its the weather, or if people are just getting sick and tired of each other, but it feels like numerous people are breaking up left and right! After engaging in several conversations concerning dating and breakups, I felt like I had to address the issue.Nobody ever said that life, including anything in it was going to be easy. And if they did say that, they definitely lied. And if you believed the lie you're a fucking idiot. Okay maybe not an idiot, but you are a moron. Its a dog-eat-dog world and nothing is ever going to be handed to you, if you want something you have to be prepared to make the sacrifices and work hard to get it. The same work ethic applies to the world of dating, nothing is ever going to be entirely simple with it.The world of dating is full of diversity: so many people searching for so many things and its easy to get corrupted, distracted, and trampled over in the process. The same scenarios happen every time, we get tired of taking someone's bullshit, people change, some one gets bored, some one gets scared...its a very fragile and complicated issue. Hell, I don't know why any of us do it at all, but the fact is that we all do it. I believe we should all learn to accept and embrace the breakup process instead of sulking or resenting the process or the person who initiated it.I can say from personal experience I have been broken up with many times, and even broken up with a few guys in my day. Some of the incidents were bad, and some of them went quite smoothly but they all come to an end. And to be frank, I couldn't be any fucking happier that they did! The breakup process teaches you something every time it occurs, and I always feel so enlightened and matured after them. I spring back into action more level headed, focused and liberated than I felt before. So what you dated the jerk and he broke your heart? Take a few days to cry and have your temper tantrum, then shake it off and move the hell on! As corny as it is, there are ALWAYS more fish in the sea! Just like you picked up the last lover, you can up another one. Yes breaking up is painful, frustrating and disappointing, but there will be sunny days and rainbows again. And if you didn't take anything from this blog, please take this: where there is anything good, you can bet there is always something better. And if there is something better then there must be something that is the best. So don't spend too much time hung up on something you thought was good, because something better just might past you by.Later my little monsters!Mikey was HERE.
Hello gorgeous.So I've been feeling incredibly creative lately, and a lot of that energy has been injected in my outer appearance. Now I am not a person with an outrageous sense of style, but the way I dress is not very common in my area. Needless to say, I very often get a lot of attention...mostly negative haha.But I have learned a few things in my day, and one lesson I learned is to live your life giving no apologies. I consider myself to be an individual because I always strive to do things my own way and at my own pace. But sometimes it feels like individuality is going out of style. So many people are thinking, dressing and acting so alike these days, particularly where I live. I don't frequently go to the club, but on the occasions I do go...it feels like everyone in there is the same! From their attire, mentality, actions...they all seem like clones of each other. Is anybody different anymore?I have also come to terms with myself on the fact that I can not really befriend or date someone who is not an individual in some aspect of their life. Whether it is their style, goals, or outlook on life, if the person is narrow-minded or a victim to sameness the relationship or friendship between us usually does not travel far. I find myself consistently fighting with them, always disagreeing on ideas or methods of doing things, feeling trapped, feeling like the person is constricting me and holding me back. If the person lacks individuality often times they will not be able to understand me, and will spend too much time trying to figure me out instead of accepting me as I am.I admire people who step outside the box to do their own thing. I respect their courage and fearlessness, and I model myself after their mentality. I want to be remembered as the boy who did his own thing, moved to the beat of his own drums, played in his own league, invented and broke his own rules. I'm bringing individuality BACK in style, and rocking it like no other! In life there is only one you, and you have two choices: you can live your life like everyone else, or you can choose to be an individual. So I encourage everyone to embrace themselves! Be your own person! And as the end of the year approaches, why not set some goals for the new year and do some things you've never done before! The only thing holding you back, is you.Later my little monsters!Mikey was HERE.
Dear hater,
Really? Again? I thought we squashed all this nonsense long ago, but I guess you decided to come back for act 2! Do you ever give that feeble little mind of yours a break? I think its so cute of you to dedicate so much time, thought and energy to little ole' me! They say big things come in small packages, and that dense tiny mind of yours sure causes so much commotion, particularly when I'm around! You sure are brave to publicize your feelings for me, most admirers prefer to remain secret, but not you! Aww, how sweet.Oh hater, when will you learn? Haven't you ever heard the grade school quote that, "I am rubber and you are glue, and whatever you say bounces off me and sticks to you"? With that being said, all your negativity holds no weight with me, it just continues its ruthless grip on you and your sorry little life. Didn't I tell you last time to go get a hobby or at least occupy your time with something productive? Glaring and snickering at me does not count you big silly! If anything, your snide remarks and attempts to pump fear into me only furthermore validates my excellence and superiority over you. I was already headed for the top, but thank you ever so kindly for pushing me up a few steps.An old saying goes, "You can lead a horse to water but you can not make it think" and I find so much relevance in that statement because I can lead your mind to some knowledge but I can not make you think! Hatred does nothing good for one's physical, emotional or mental being, if anything it confines you. I'm all about love and progression, and you and I can never coexist being that you are all about negativity and digression. Not all opposites attract, some of them repel.Great leaders are seldom understood or threatened by their peers, and you and your shallow outlook on life pose no threat to me. Perhaps you do not dislike or hate me, but in fact fear me because I pose a threat to you. Whereas you live your life in a box, I live mine outside it. You fear me because you fear change. However, instead of turning my back on you I choose to enlighten you. I do not think I am better than you, I am simply leading by example. I do not seek revenge on you, I pray for humility and patience to deal with you. You do not disgust me although you very often disappoint me. But you are human just like me and I know as humans we are frequently flawed. And because I can empathize with you, I grit my teeth when you scowl at me. I turn the other cheek when you cause an uproar when I walk by. I try my best not to verbally assault you when you make rude remarks about me.Hater, I love you dearly. Thanks for the fuel, and when I reach my peak I promise to embrace my success and remain humble. I couldn't have made it this far with out you, keep it up!XOXOMikey was HERE.
Hello gorgeous.My silence and decline in blogging has been due to big change in my agenda. Things in my life have shifted, and for once I actually have priorities! Haha I guess everyone eventually does have to grow up. Who knew?!With the change of the season and with recent events in my life, I have been flooded with new feelings of confidence and ambition. On a personal note, I have endured many emotional blows but my tenacity has kept me standing.This season, and as the year finally comes to its end I am going to strive to step out of my element. Take some chances, and spice things up. Life has the tendency to take us out of our comfort zone, and sometimes we can not fight the change, we just have to adapt. Change can be good for us, and I am going to embrace it.I have been feeling these unprecedented surges of creativity, and I think its time to exert them. Maybe slightly change the way I dress, venture into some different artistic venues, broaden my outlook on life.For once I feel like taking some risks. So consider that a head's up and a threat.Later my little monsters!Mikey was HERE.
Hello gorgeous.Its the first of the month! Oh my gosh I am so stoked, its been pretty cold this week too! Now I can hit the mall and thrift stores (Yes I am a thrift store fanatic) to go shopping for sweaters and scarves!
So I decided to make a blog about every one's favorite topic: S-E-X! We're all adults here right?
*Devious grin*
Sex....every one's doing it, and majority of them are not doing it right! In my opinion, sex in my generation has been so badgered, eroded, and diminished into practically nothing of significant value. Its in the media, in our music, advertisement, and it has transformed into a form so unrecognizable and contorted.
Now-a-days it seems people are mainly concerned with penis size and promiscuity. It doesn't take much to get someone in bed anymore, many people will beat you to the bedroom before you even make the offer. So many young women have demeaned themselves into whores, and sadly pride themselves in wearing the title. Many men, especially in the gay community, hop from one partner to the next and think nothing of it. It appears that we live in an era where sex and love have nothing to do with each other anymore. But I'm quite confused, when did sex and love have a break-up? And is there any hope of them getting back together?
Call me old fashioned, call me a clueless idealist, but I think more of sex than what many people of my generation do. Maybe it something to do with my upbringing, or maybe its because I have morals.Whatever the case is I know that sex is more than getting a dick shoved up your ass, spreading your legs and laying on your back, or dropping on your knees and servicing someone. I refuse to have sex with someone simply because they have a pretty smile and is well-endowed. Whatever happened to making someone you like wait to experience that privilege with you? Or perhaps that's the problem, people don't view sex as an intimate privilege that only a select few should experience with you.
Now I am not looking down on anyone or their lifestyles, but I think that many people have sex for all the wrong reasons. Some people have sex because they are sadly on a search for love and validation, but those are two things you should already have established with the person before you engage in the act with them. Also, some people allow sex to consume their relationships because they are too blinded to see that without it they have no depth in the relationship or there is nothing in common with the other person. I find it most sad, that many people have various loveless sexual encounters and pride themselves in boasting about how many partners that have had, or how they have cheated on their partners to sleep with someone else. Those people are trying to muffle their screams for attention and help.
Many people think they have sex all figured out, but let me enlighten everyone on the truth about sex: sex can be many things, but it should never require you to sacrifice your self-esteem, dignity, self-respect, or identity to engage in the act. There is nothing wrong with taking your time when it comes to sex so that it actually means something when you do it. So boys and girls it is not the "size of the boat" or "the motion of the ocean", it is about the volume of your morality.
Later my little monsters!Mikey was HERE.
