Living is so turbulent, well at least for me it is. Maybe its because my actions are so impulsive and unpredictable. I know it drives my friends insane, hell I surprise myself most of the time.
But there are those days when I feel on top of the world. There are times when I walk across my school campus and I feel big, bigger than life. I zone out and everything around me kneels before me. I take the day by the horns and everything goes my way. The hugs from friends are non-stop, and the smiles and compliments from strangers are just as plentiful. Laughing is abundant and contagious amongst those I come in contact with. I feel loved, and I am elevated to a higher level. I glow and beam with happiness, I even float a little bit. It feels like I'm running when I'm just standing in one spot. Those days are what I look forward to.
But there are other days. Days that are darker, much darker. Days when I feel doubtful and unsure. I feel restless, and agitated because I can't seem to focus on anything. There are moments when I feel completely detached from my life and reality. I feel like a crumbling building, falling apart bit by bit until everything comes crashing down. There are those days when I feel like screaming, angry and resentful. Days when I am surrounded by people who know me and love me, and I feel isolated and alone. I can't articulate my emotions, and it feels like if I made an attempt to express myself it would be equivalent to being blind folded and taking a shot in a dark room. There are times when I feel like I am under so much pressure that I am about to explode. Those days are what I run from.
But through my highs and lows, I am so blessed to see another day. When my alarm clock goes off in the morning, or a friend calls me and breaks my sleep, for that silent moment laying in my bed, and my mind is fighting off the haze of my sleepiness, I feel a joy. A joy that I am a new person today. Whether the day is good or bad, I am totally and entirely 100% new. Then things don't look so gloomy anymore. A new me is born, and life becomes amazing. Life becomes less of a chore and more of a privilege. We all go through highs and lows, but its the highs and lows that make us stronger. Its those those highs and lows that turns a new page, teaches us a new lesson, that gives us another chance to make something incredible happen. Its the highs and lows that eventually shapes the impossible into miracles.
Peace and love!
Mikey was HERE.
